woke up and wished that i was dead

Bits and pieces of lately,

I've let go the possibility of a better job with better paycheck. Which left me with no more option to run to.

Lately, people told me their secrets. And I feel like my hair is getting bigger from keeping and digesting all of those.

Been missing geng, ngong, and suril like crazy. However, time isn't exactly on my side these days.

Those and little things, that somehow lead to...

Can't help feeling scared. For I don't know what. Maybe for entering the grown-up world. I don't think I've ever been this scared. I don't think I've ever wanted to cry this bad. Wait, yes, I have, but that's another story. But I don't think I've ever held my tears inside this long. I wish I could just hide behind my friends, and stay in the moment for a while or ever. Yes, I want to mematung, again. That, or run.

Mygod. I'm terrified.

je ne veux pas travailler

I'm in need of major mood lifter and some big-time ego booster.

Please gimme some. I'll pay you back someday, when I am rich and can afford to be reckless.

je veux seulement l'oublier, et puis je fume

I wonder, would people in my office know if I smoked weeds secretly?

Oh how I want to. Badly.