i can't be losing sleep over this

So, so far I've been working in this place I'd like to call the sinking ship office for 3 months and 4 days...

3 months!!! I thought I had went through 3 lifetimes here. I still have some more 3 months to go before my contract expires.

And just like normal people, I'm starting to loathe my job. No more eager, idealistic, optimistic fool. I've come to realize that my job is not well paid, nor it has the professional working ethics. This is a joke.

And I hate my boss, because he's stupid. He always insists on giving teenagers the coolest and hippest pieces. When really, aside from his girlfriend, he's even further from the word 'teenagers' than I am. And seriously, he's not cool and definitely not hip.

I don't know if I'm telling the exact facts or if it's just some 3-months-crisis talking.

Point is, I have to get out of here. But there's always that dreadful point of getting started. In this case, getting started to quit.

hold on to this kite, just don't let me down

Bits And Pieces.

- I'm gonna be an aunt. Tee-hee. Yes, my sister's a pregger. That is nice and exciting. On the other hand, the pregnancy justifies my sister's being a big spoiled brat for about 9 months. Okay, take a deep breath...

- Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger are so last year. Blake Lewis and Chris Richardson (from AI) make the cutest couple ever. Heheh. No, they aren't going out or something. But I see they have become best friends... And best friends that look good always score high in my book. Too bad, Chris is going home. Maybe he doesn't sing well, but he's easy on the eyes.
*Ps. Blake looks even better with the dark hair!

- Another good-looking besties are Peter Parker and Harry Osborne. Have you watched Spiderman 3? This couple, however, are more likely to pull a Brokeback Mountain routine. I mean with all the Hallmark-channel-material scenes and all. But the movie was entertaining, still.

- Speaking of which, I watched the movie yesterday, with Ing, Bunsya and Pedngun. After I went sushi-ing with Ingga and before we all went karaoke-ing at Inul Vista (my 1st time there!). What a fulfilling day. I mean, first, sushi. Second, a movie with Tobey Maguire, James Franco and Kirsten Dunst in it (I know, I'm such a star-crazed pre-teen). Third, karaoke-ing somewhere new. Inul's was niceee, it has a disco ball and a tambourine that lights up. Of course, being with the most best friends you can scrape together from your life, beat it all.

- Girl friends vs boyfriends. It'd make an interesting topic for the inside us column on my tabloid, wouldn't it? It just that, it seems to be the universal theme of the moment. What to do, what to do? And I can keep being the optimistic fool and thinking to myself, "it shouldn't be this hard with us, and whatever this is, it'll phase out". But the reality is, it is this hard with us now, and I haven't seen any way out.

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New York, New York
And I almost dance in the middle
Of shopping housewives and
Snobbish perfume-sales ladies
And I know it's raining outside
But still, I celebrate
For I will be seeing you
And you, and you
And you, and you
But still,

I wish I'd be seeing you too.

you don't have to worry, 'cause there ain't no need to hurry.

5-ish. Try driving across (well not exactly 'across') Jakarta, see people start their day as you end yours, while listening to the hypnotizing tunes. I did. I was on my way home, the moon was full and shining brightly and at the same time, I saw the sun rising.

Surreal.

Now the sun is up, and the strangeness I call my moment on the daybreak has gone.

Alright. Time to butcher the keyboard with my teens'-lingo-filled writings I call work.