obsessions in my head don't connect with my intellect

This may seem far-fetched, but humor me. Fangirl alter ego is back.

So it was only a couple days ago I suddenly missed playing with a film camera. But I don't have a non-toy film camera. That was when I decided to browse around for the real thing. No I don't plan to buy one anytime soon, I can't afford it, but I can dream. And my dream is Leica M7.

Today, I stumbled upon an old interview of Coldplay's Guy Berryman. Here's the excerpt:

What sort of camera do you use?
A Leica M7. It's a film camera.

Old school!
Absolutely. You can't beat it.

Do you wait until you get home to process the films?
Yeah, I generally shoot all the way through the tour, then when we get back I'll drop all the films at the lab.

Must be quite exciting when you pick up a batch.
It is! It's like Christmas morning.

Why have you stuck with film and not moved over to digital?
Just because I believe that with digital photography you take too many shit pictures that you put no thought or effort into taking. Plus, everyone takes pictures on digital these days, so it's hard to take pictures which stand out as being different.

Am I crazy to think that we're totally made for each other? I mean, come on! I'm speechless, I just want to say "+1,000,000!"

Here's a bit more of the interview:

Will you have time for a look around?
Well, we're leaving at 2 o'clock tomorrow afternoon to go to Vienna, so I'm going to have the morning to hit some antique shops and some book shops and pick up as much clutter as I possibly can.

Is that your standard plan when you're on tour?
It is. I bought a gramophone in Prague earlier today, as well as some photograph books by some Czech photographers. I like to try and find things that you can't get in England.

Gramophone, antique shops, film camera, books. He likes rustic things! That's.. That's just... *passes out*




On another note, will I ever have US$ 4,995 to buy that Leica?

she was tired of sleeping

I think Fight Club (the movie) is brilliant, and yes I recently bought Invisible Monsters, but I never really read a Palahniuk before. However, thanks to Twitter and its quote-happy inhabitants, I found a good quote from Palahniuk's Haunted:

“What matters,” Sister Vigilante says, “is, people need a monster they can believe in.”
A true and horrible enemy. A demon to define themselves against. Otherwise, it’s just us versus us.

So it is okay to have demons in my head. Because otherwise, I'd just be battling myself :)

a maze of thousand rainy days

My best friend, the Topan to my Lesus, the Beavis to my Butthead, the Disco Superfly to my Disco Lemonade, Pedhe, is getting married. As the Mate of Honor, I believe I have done most of my tasks. Choosing the brocade color, check. Designing the invitation, check (with the help of Sindro and Hilman). Hen night, in progress. And other tiny details, in progress. Playing a pre-marital shrink for the Bridezilla, CHECK like you've never checked before :D

Anyway. I have to give a standing ovation for her. Being her friend for the last ten years, I know her like the back of my hand. Just like me, she wants many things and she usually gets it. But she's not kicking and screaming to get it, she works for it. I admire her toughness and perseverance. And with the whole wedding brouhaha thing (or Wouhaha, as I like to call it), I also see how persistent she can be, standing up for her principles. Just like most girls, she has her dream wedding sketched up already, and she's breaking bones to achieve it. Standing applause, everyone.

Now let's move on to me. Do I have a dream wedding sketched up already? Hazily. The dream changes from year to year. From the most unrealistic ones (disposable cameras for guests, and butterflies-releasing ceremony), to the slightly realistic ones (in a building, with hundreds of people you don't know). I said 'slightly' because although it's the default template for most people in Jakarta, I don't know if I will ever be able to afford it. Mahal ya bok, nikah. I'd rather save the money for after the wedding.

But beyond it all, I do want to go home everyday to someone who feels like a missing puzzle piece, I do want to grow old together but stay young inside forever, I want to be Carl and Ellie, I want millions of fights and double for the make-up make-out sessions, I do not want what my mom and my dad had.

So where am I right now? I'm in the phase where I'm working to earn and save to get what I want. Maybe I'm not working hard enough, but hey, those few pennies will get the piggy-bank-for-dreams project started. I believe the significant other is in the same, but harder, phase, since he has to juggle more things. And yeah.

Now, above all the things I want, I hope our busy-ness will not wear us out. I hope neither of us will get so caught up in the battle that we forget what the war is for.



And in time, I will probably go "what the--" on this melodramatic post, and probably blame the "that time of the month". But hey, it's a post. It's a tad better than nothing.


Toodles pretty people,
-R