Feeling like killing.

"You're talking like you have a death-wish. Well you're lucky cos I have a murder-wish."

Forget everything...

What the hell am I doing? Always rambling in this blog??

Everyone, forget everything that I've said!!

And then...

I hate her. And oh, how I want to hate the guy soooo much. I do. Sometimes. But the other times he pops into my mind and...I dunno, just swirls in there.

And today, I accidentally saw a glimpse of a printed image of him, and not-accidentally saw a glimpse of the moving image of him. Seeing his face, I was like thinking, I hate him (for I don't know what)...but at the same time I couldn't help smiling. I hate that.

Stop messing with my head. Please1000x...

I hate him for making me somehow subtly chaotic. Bcos of him (doing nothing) I become this stupid mess. And again, DOES HE EVEN KNOW?!

I hate him & his stupid girl. Screw them!! Go!!! Go somewhere far!! Far enough for me to forget about them!!

Blog is a stupid idea.

Argh! Where are my entries??!! @ the deadjournal I can see my entry after I just a few secs after I post it. Now, here @ this stupid blog, I wrote an entry, post it...and now, it's been days...and...NOPE...NADA...NONE...

Anyfuckinway...
I'm bored.

I'm fuckin bored.
*sorry, if my cursing is too...not-nicey2 for anyone of you out there*

Jaded. Perhaps that's the right word? Long time no fuckin see, Jaded. Nothing is that wrong to make me feel bad, but I've no reason to feel good either.

Bitter, huh? PMS-y moment... x(

Playing interview.

I copy this from Ayu's blog. From Q mag or some sort.

What were you like at school?
I dunno, not exactly the quite one and not exactly the loud one. Not the smart one and not the troublemaker one. I was one of those "somewhereinbetween" ones, I think.
What's your most treasured possession?
My three best friends.
When did you last cry and why?
Last wednesday. Bcos I saw the most unpleasant sight ever.
What's your poison?
3C's=Coffee, Coke, Cognac. :p
Pick five words to describe yourself.
Different, interesting, complicated, fun, & stupid. Haha, seriously, I dunno.
What's in your pocket right now?
Nothing.
Who was the last person you punched?
Didit. Maaf ya diit...Tadi gua lagi kesel, dan tnyata tangan lo kuat sampe gak kerasa ya pukulan gua...Jadilah gua tinju2in tu tangan.
What was the last record you bought?
...Lupa loh. Udah lama bgt ya gak beli apa2...
What's your most unpleasant characteristic?
Selfish?
What's your greatest fear?
Future & loneliness.
What's the greatest film ever made?
Film animasi boneka2nya Pedhe, arahan sutradara Runi Indrani dan Putri Prameshwari. xD
Can you recite a line of poetry?
It feels like...Nothing. Numb. Hahaha, buatan sendiri tuh. Abis gak pernah baca puisi2an.
What turns you on?
Guys. Certain guys. A certain guy?
Happiness is ...
Something that I'm dying to find.
Where are you going now?
To bed in few minutes.

Here's another one.

I had a dream last night. Ugh! I hate that guy!

Haha, hate that guy? Yea, sure *sarcastic*.

I'm in one of my "screwhim" moments. Sure, with this PMS and my cranky-ness, it's easy to hate him. Argh...

I don't want to feel anything for him. Not a thing.
"i should have no feeling cos feeling is pain" [weezer]
There. I'm just tired feeling this and that and this and that for that guy. DOES anyone know how much my time is wasted for him? Does HE know??!!

Pardon this cranky-ness. But I feel like trashing that guy. It won't last anyway...

Actually the dream I had last nite doesn't play much part in this crankyness. I'm just in the mood to hate him. Hahaha.

been thinking about you, and there's no rest
shit, I still love you, still see you in bed
but I'm playing with myself, what do you care
when I'm not there..

-Radiohead.