"..I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile"

Now that I got this blog neatly arranged, think I'll write some nice things here.

*saturday night*

Last night was Jaya's farewell @ Bangun's. Jaya really is going to Malaysia tomorrow, and not just for a holiday. He's going to study there :(

I thought last night was gonna be the usual stoned-fest with the usual crowd. It turned out there were more guys than usual. Ebonk was there, and Ocha (my long lost brother :P) was there, and there were some guys from high-school, Bangun's full-time-stoner friends, and..there was him.

Nothing significant though, but still, I was enjoying myself watching him doing...whatever he was doing. Talking animatedly with the guys (his laugh..? smile-inducing!), fiddling with Bangun's stuffed koala, playing guitar (although I wasn't close enough to hear what he was playing), and even when he was playing playstation where I can only watched his back. Comfortable, and as always, I didn't want the night to end.

However, thank God, thank Jaya, thank everyone who made him come to Bangun's and made it possible for me to come (thanks Ped ;p). Oyeah, this is sooo nothing, but I managed to get "ati2 ya" out of my mouth when I found out that he went home by himself. Shucks, how lame could I get?? But I always had a difficult time in producing a sound everytime he was around, so, being able to say something I really mean to say to him is definitely something for me (are you still following? xp)

*sunday*

Bangun, Jaya and Ebonk came by my house this noon and woke me & Pedhe from our slumber (Pedhe stayed over). We were actually doing nothing (well except for Jaya and his friendster), but it was nice having them around. Everyone needs their friends, right? Tomorrow the bunch and I are going to the airport with Jaya *sob*. Hoo-hoo, there goes another great friend…

*current song quote*

IRIS [goo goo dolls]

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll
ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

note for sindrow

droow, maap2 neh, bukannya gak menghargai. i guess i forgot to mention kalo gua mau nyoba benerin nih blog. jadinya bukannya gua gak menghargai komen baru yg lo kasih. tapi gua prefer yg lama, krn udah ada pesen2 kan didalemnya.

aaaand, guess what, gua nemu caranya biar comment system yg lama bisa nongol lagi. dan gua nemu caranya biar judul entry bisa nongol juga. gua ulang sluruh templatenya from scratch. ee-hee. dan skrg blog gua udah kurang lebih lengkap lah...

heheh, maap yah comment system barunya gua apus.

is it here? is it visible?

Saw his car today @ PIM parking lot...Didn't see him, though. That's okay. But now he's whirling inside my head. Heheh, nothing bad though. *nyanyi dulu, ndro* "it's no good, i want you in my room all day instead in my mind".

Anywayys...I can't switch on my cell phone!!! Argh, it's frustrating! What can I say, I'm a 21st century metropolitan girl. I need my cellphone. Sure, mom'll have it repair by tomorrow and I know I still have the guarantee card--so it'll cost nothing (hopefully)..But still...It kinda freaks me out thinking about all my pictures, all the text messages, and what might happen to them.

One more thing, why can't I show my title here?? Where is it?? Sindrooo, mulai frustrasi gua benerin ni blog!! Gimana doooong?? Trus sama commentnya kok systemnya lagi down mulu. Kapan gak downnya dooonnnng?? Anyone who knows how to deal with the entry title and the comment system, please do leave a message. Oops, no you can't, bcos the comment system is down!! Well, if you know how, email me: runi_indrani@hotmail.com.

Time to stop. Is it?

Stop thinking about him, Run. Stop getting all curious and finding out things about him & his girlfriend. Stop trying your ass off to have an accidental meeting with him. Sure, you’ll meet him sometime and you’ll go giddy; but that’s it. Stop dreaming the impossible. Stop waiting. Stop thinking that you have all the time in the world and it doesn’t matter if you wait for him forever. Because you don’t, okay? And it does matter. So just stop. Stop.