that movie kiss

Today, I rediscovered Her Space Holiday's song, Tech Romance. Sindro introduced me to the song back in college days. While it is a sad song, and my sad days are over, the second part of the song is actually sweet (if you cut it short on all the right places). Here goes.

"You can show up at my house
Completely unannounced
We'll have that movie kiss we talked about
Where there are no words
Just a soft and gentle score
Our ears will ring from all the strings

We'll let the screen go black
And watch the credits run
And see the names of everyone
Who we ever met
And who we ever missed
Each one had a role in this"

And here is the complete (and sad) version of the song:

i'm sure you've been misled before, how ones you trusted slammed the door

There was once a little girl who didn't know what a father was. Because she spent her early days learning about her mother, her sister, her grandmother, her grandfather, her uncles, her aunties, but she didn't know what a father was.

Then she grew a bit older, and she learned what a father was when hers visited her. She kind of liked this man that was her father. He was nice, he showered her with love and affection, and he taught her a thing or two about life--such as, how to clip her nails clean, how she should appreciate her napping time because when she got older she wouldn't get much napping time... And how family meetings were unimportant, it's not about the quantity, it's the quality. A father was a blast, for the whole 3-4 hours a month when she was with him.

Then the girl grew into twice as big and twice as old as she was before. 3-4 hours a month was now 3-4 hours in six months or so. She learned why the father didn't come into her life on time. She learned that he should have been on time. She learned that not all fathers were heroes to look up to like what she had learned from movies.

Now the girl was a little bit more mature. She was ready to let go of her selfish resentment over the father. Because these days, she had to learn that people changed--for the better, she had hoped. That the father had his second chance with another family. That all she could do was wish that the father would do better this time around. But then she learned that the father hadn't exactly changed. It was a little mistake, not as big as the one in the past, but it broke her heart. Because she discovered that her father still couldn't be the one to look up to.

Now all the girl can do is hope that she can love someone that loves her as much, that hearts won't get broken, and that trusts won't be taken for granted. Now she goes around loathing any kind of infidelity. She can't see why anyone would do something that can hurt the loved ones. So, if you have a straying heart and you see this girl, don't blame her if she has no respect for you.

get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute

So this is the story that I said I'd save for another time on my last post.

I'm quitting my job. I've submitted my resignation letter last week. I've signed the working contract at the new place, also last week. I'm not going to write the details here. Instead, I'm going to list things that I will actually miss from my current office:

1. Free, home-cooked lunch
Although the menu starts to repeat itself after few days and it can get really boring, free lunch is actually helpful when I'm short on dough.

2. Wednesday morning aerobic
Let's face it, without a trainer to whip me off my ass and make me exercise, I'm an invertebrate. And I can't afford a personal trainer. So yes, I will miss the Wednesday morning aerobic and yoga. I surely will miss my so-called deep pink yoga mat, which is actually pieces of foam puzzle mat put into one.

3. Working with Pak Ignas
He's this laid back VIP who--surprisingly for me--is very nice to work with.

4. Nap time during office hours
So this isn't exactly recommended, but it isn't frowned upon in my office, as long as I can manage to wake up and pretend to type and be busy in a snap when I hear my boss's footsteps.

Aaaand... that's about it. I guess.