I need my hair just like Samson did.

Helloo. Thought I'd write something here. Lessee...

I and Pedhe finally went to Bandung by train last thursday! By train! We survived. Hahaha. We got excited and got very norak on the train. Then there was Bandung. It was fun! Bangun, Ebonk, Ingga, boozeweedmushroom, karaoke lounge, bowling alley, stars, and city lights. It was all good. Too bad, the inevergohometojakarta lanky guy was indeed going back to Jakarta the day we arrived. Blaah. Anyway, we went back to Jakarta on saturday and we headed straight to Rosel's. Bune was already there, and we were having a sleepover. Days surrounded by loved ones. How nice.

Aside from above, I guess no more worth-telling stuff. Heck, worth-telling or not, I'm still gonna write it down.

I so miss my long hair!

I want my long hair back. I know back then it often looked like a mess and I ended up putting it in a ponytail, but...I miss having something falling on my shoulder. I miss having something flowy and girly. Ack. It'll be a long, long waiting to do.

Here, take a look.


See, something flowy..



Even these look girl-like



I didn't mind cutting it short



But how did it turn into these??!

I know when my hair does grow back, I'll have the urge to cut it short. But right now, I want my long hairrr!!! *whiny*

People...They always want what they don't have.

.the best days you can get.

*ahem* Don't mind that boozehead below.

I don't have the energy to recap the NYE. So I'll keep it nice and short. I tried to smoke a cigarette right when the year turned. I was singing with some people to Mugho's guitar-playing. I remember wearing a pair of really dark sunglasses around the house so I didn't have to deal with sunlight. Then there was the morning ice cream. I remeber feeling okay and having fun.

I remember NOT wanting to sleep, bcos I'll never know if in a year or two from now I'll still have the friends and fun I have right now. Really, you'll never know. So I tried to stay awake as long as I can, and I'm glad that I did.

I had fun. Time for new year's speech...PedBunRos, love you bcos you're always there from time to time. From one NYE to another. I know you probably had someplace else to go (Bun: Syarif's friend's party, Rosel:..er, home?); and I know I was acting selfish by whining so that I could have the 4 of us together by the big countdown. But hey, you'll never know. Better get together as often as we can while we still can.

For the rest of last night's guests, thanks for still coming. Thanks for being the most pleasant and lovely bunch of jokers a girl could have. Love you all! And that would be Ebonk, Bangun, Jaya, Mugho, Eblack, Syarif, Maria, Wahyu...Did I leave out someone? All in all, happy newy people!

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"Dan aku .. ingin selalu kau sentuh
Karna kamu
Yang bisa menyelamatkanku
Cuma kamu
Yang mampu mengendalikan aku"
[slank] xD

..despite everything..

theres always someone there

but overall im happy, and gratful...ive survived, here's 2005. and everythings gonna be ok. they all say that. evrythings gonna be ok. believe in that. love you all. happy new year. i am okay! x)

2oo5~

here i am, NYE'05...in peds house with a spliff in my hand...hahaha...everyone is sleeping. the loves f my life is sleeping. bunepdross. my god. even syarif is too. maria and jaya doing whatever they do. dammit i cant think right now. shit. ive smoked like tons of spliffs, but i cant sleepp. dammit. cant stop smpoking,,,i hv to do something. anythinggg. everyoen cant sleeppp, i dont want them to. but i cant wake anyone. dmmitt, help me pleasee. pls save me. fuck you. fuckin save me! im tireddd.. it's 5 oclock and im stupid.

wait,ebonk bghn eblek and ...who2....ooo mugho are still awake. theyre playing cardss. damitt

you were here fuck you. you were fun. i wanna sleep but i cnt. happy new year bytheway people. love you all. ive been love you all since forver..time to go out.

plaYed cards just then. pls dont go people, no more.

let dowwn..thanks mr york for singing it.