we never change, do we? we never learn, do we?

Who has the best cousins ever?

I'd like to say Rozelle for she has one that is very...er, goodlooking. But humor aside, it's me. I have Khesia and Archie, or Kakak and Chichi as I usually call. See, I used to live with them until their mother remarried, then they're out of the house. Back then, when we were all still in this house, neither of us cherished the time. But now that we live separately, I treasure every time I've spent with them.

Just yesterday they came by because Khesia needs tutoring for her english. It was fun teaching her because we always slipped in stupid, retard-ish jokes and talks. Dinner time was the best, everyone was around, including keluarga "rumah depan". As usual, it was us--the youngest girls in the house--who dominated the conversation. We talked about people, made fun of some, and laughed about some others. And oh how I miss the time when that happened every night. And after that, we made water balloons which we called "silikon kampung utan" from these balon tiup kampung thingy just like when we were younger.

Seriously, they're the perfect mix of: Beavis, Butthead, Ren, Stimpy, The Plastics from Mean Girls, sugar and spice and everything nice. And aside from the girls, they're the closest thing I got to having sisters. Sure, I've sisters of my own, but you know...

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Moving on. Holiday has been a snooze fest so far. I haven't found anything to do, that is interesting, exactly. Of course there's my teaching job, and another assignment *gasp*. In case anyone's wondering how come I still have assignment to deal with during holiday, let's just say I have to thank my forgetfulness for it. Ugh. However, I enjoy having days off. I can stay up late, wake up in the middle of the day, and watch TV like there's no tomorrow.

Speaking of which, nowadays I spend my wee hours watching Cartoon Network. 1am, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, 1.30 Grim Adventure of Billy and Mandy, and 2am Powerpuff Girls. Heheh. I know I've turned 21 not too long ago, but these cartoons are very entertaining. And my latest favorite is just adorable:

Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends

Anyway. I better work on my assignment.

Au revoir.

the doctor told her years ago that she was ill, the doctor told her years ago to take a pill

Erm, correction, my chocolate chip cookies turned out to be as hard as rock. Boo hoo. But they still taste good *smug smile*

Anyway. About a week ago, when I was in Bandung, Ebonk was sick. And I told him something like, "makanya pulang kenapa? kalo di jakarta kan ada yang ngurus. makanya makan yang bener," and bla bla bla.

Next, on monday, I called Bune and she said she still wasn't feeling very well. And I said something like, "ah, cupu. sakit mulu deh. makanya jaga kesehatan dong."

On the same day, I called Ingga and found out that he wasn't feeling very well either. And I said something like, "kok lo kayak orang-orang sih. giliran gue alhamdulillah sehat walafiat dan mau ngajak orang-orang jalan, kalian pada sakit. makanya jaga kesehatan dong! wuu." *note: it was usually me who was ill during holiday season. Hello, NYE 2004 =p

Still on Monday, I found out Yoyok was sick. I didn't say anything though, because it was Ped who told me about him.

Fast forward to wednesday night, I got a fever. My body was so hot, literally. And I felt sore all over. The next morning, I hadn't fully recovered but I was okay. However, that night, I had this twisting pain in my stomach. I don't know why, but I think I OD from all the vitamin C I took to cure my sariawan. Friday, no more stomachache but I had a runny nose. And now, I keep coughing like dogs on crack, and I still have a runny nose. My voice even starts to sound like banci again.

Moral lesson, hati-hati kalo sombong, kalo sok, dan kalo ngomong.

i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget

Just a minute ago Rosel called me from one of the many weddings she attends to. Guess whom she had seen earlier? Mr.Pudding in batik shirt. Ooh, lucky Rosel. This is just like the time when Bune said she saw him riding ojek... Mereka yang ketemu, gue yang deg-degan. Hahah. Norak.

Anyhoo. Little updates.

I've finished my last final exam yesterday. No more presentation, no more papers, no more exams... Well at least for the next couple of months.

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So, last night, my friends from english dept. decided to get together @ Warung Baba-Kemang. 'My friends' here were, Monik, Ima, Nissa, Tisam, Nilam, Sindro, Memmy and Pani. Yep, all girls. That's what's wrong with my campus, lacking in male species. Anyway, it was fun, and I'm glad I decided to wake up from my seemed-like everlasting sleep and go.

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As in today, I used my free time making chocolate chip cookies. Not bad, I must say.

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I fall even more in love with... Guy Berryman. And also, in lust with Gael Garcia Bernal. Hahah.

Omygod. I find myself lacking in words to write. I'll come back when I'm able to write something even slightly better than what's above. Even obituary is more interesting than that.

Arrivederci.

At the final moment, I cried. I always cry at endings.

Nothings and everythings in 2005

1. First thing in 2005, tried smoking for the first time.
2. Went to Bandung with Pedhe by TRAIN!!! Interesting... except for the trip back to Jakarta when I got really tired and slept all through the way. Piss, Ped =p
3. Dreading and waiting for my hair to grow back.
4. Learned to play bowling for the first time.
5. Started to learn how to drive, again, just so I wouldn't lose a bet with Ped. Ended up losing it anyway.
6. Tried shopping @ Passer Baroe for the first time.
7. Joined the Mading team.
8. Bought my very own computer... yang selalu ada aja aksinya.
9. Tried mushrooms (magic ones) for the first time.
10. Naik kereta gantung setelah bertaun-taun nggak.
11. Sleepover @ Bune's for the 1st time, setelah berteman bertahun-tahun.
12. Satu lagi teman yang keluar dari Jakarta: Oho left the country for better education (or was it a better rockstar's life?) in Oz.
13. Grew closer to Syarif. Close enough for him to irritatingly read my mind.
14. Squeezed my brain dry, thinking a way to make a forgetful guy remember moi.
15. Geng Suril yang dibuat pada malam 1 suril yang sungguh... well, surreal. Hi Nil, Sind, Nand.
16. Pedhe and Bangun became official. Yaay!
17. Went to Pasar Senen for the 1st time. And last time, as a matter of fact.
18. Ditaksir suami orang.
19. Naksir pacar temen.
20. Started smoking like crazy. Daily. It lasted for a month or so.
21. Suril times with geng Suril by the lake.
22. Jadi penerima tamu buat Nusantara Symphony Orchestra. Gaji buta.
23. Trying out for Starbucks' recruitment. Interview, check. IQ test or some sort, check. But they didn't call back.
24. Olimpiade UI and me being a loyal supporter of it.
25. Piknik Jadul with some of my classmates by the lake.
26. Managed to get a certain someone to drive me home.
27. Joined the Festbud committee.
28. On-again-off-again Bali trip. In the end, it was off for me.
29. Rozelle and Ingga became official. Double yay!
30. Went to Bandung and back in just one night.
31. Ngambil semester pendek for the first time. And the last, I hope.
32. Pulang naik kereta express sama Nilam. And yeah, it was my first time.
33. The long-awaited Coldplay's album, X and Y.
34. Get together with the girls, Ingga, Yoyok, Bangun, Ebonk and Oho (for a while).
35. Went to Pekan Raya Jakarta for the 1st time, I think.
36. Jadi panitia pengawas SPMB. Another gaji buta.
37. Bune left the country for a summer course in Netherland. The longest one month in my life! Hahah.
38. Little reunion with Myra and Dhiska.
39. Kemakan omongan, and losing another bet because of it.
40. Another couple became official. This time, no yay.
41. Made an unsignificant call to a significant someone.
42. Batalyon reunion. Went well, and I was one of the masterminds. Wee-hoo!
43. Digosipin naksir Gibond.
44. I became a teacher at this place called Chrysolit. No more gaji buta.
45. Sinestra and conflicts in it.
46. Silent treatment from Nissa for a few weeks and vice versa.
47. Ingga and Rozelle broke up. Boo.
48. Roz turned 21 @ Cakalang and Tamani.
49. Bune turned 21 @ Rozelle's.
50. Cut my hair for the 1st time after Ubud. Managed to lose every bit of Ubud's on my head.
51. No buka puasa "angkatan" this year, there wasn't even a buka puasa geng. But there was a malem takbiran bersama "angkatan" yang dia-dia lagi.
52. Ped turned 21 @ Tomodachi and Molinari Cafe. Roz was absent.
53. I turned 21 on the best day of the year, which included: Culturaholic band audition, sort-of-surprise from my friends, the confetti sprays attack *my favorite part*, and dinner @ Tartine with the girls, Bangun and Angga.
54. Had a crush on someone whom I only saw 3 times this year, and godknows when I will see him again.
55. Festbud.
56. The music event of Festbud. Best and worst day of my life.
57. Kepincut lagi when I should've known better.
58. The postponed GK. It was more interesting this year. With a guy with a pudding head there, and even more interesting, a magnetic dickhead around.
59. Had a crush on an old friend after seeing him in a video from almost a year before. Interesting side-note: I found an entry in my real journal from Jan 25th 2005, and I wrote, "Although it doesn't make much difference, I always love it when he's around." And the 'he', of course, refers to that old friend.
60. Saying goodbye to the Mading team.

As for the closure of 2005, I left my very own NYC called Jakarta, to Indonesia's very own...Seattle? (abis ujan mulu) known as Bandung with Pedhe and Bangun. There were booze and weeds which I missed very much, Ebonk whom I rarely see these days, dan temen-temen kosannya Bangun yang baik hati. But sadly, after 4 NYEs together, this NYE, genk pecah because Bune and Roz couldn't make it. Take a look at what I wrote exactly a year ago:

"I know I was acting selfish by whining so that I could have the 4 of us together by the big countdown. But hey, you'll never know. Better get together as often as we can while we still can."

So, next year, I'm going to be my whiny-self again, and get the girls together no matter what. I won't accept any more excuses because I can't bear having any more annual events without all three of them around.

Anyway.
Happy New Year 2006!!!

"cos every worthless word we get more far away
and nothing's ever promised tomorrow today
and nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe,
it hurts but it may be the only way"
[Adam Levine]